I know the feeling. I love being alone. Love cooking alone or cleaning the house. I also can not work when someone is near me because I find it completely distracting. Yet, there are days when i come home and wish there was someone I could drink wine with and talk. I often skype my friends or exchange texts and voice messages throughout the day. But it's not the same, you know? Sometimes you just want to feel like someone is in the house with you. That there's someone you can cuddle with when you're tired. I am too very lonely at the point it scares me when i think about it, but at the same time, I am not lonely at all.